Sunday, July 30, 2006
Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
on to the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out His hand
But the waves are calling out my name
And they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy, you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"
But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the Voice of Truth
So many times I have not trusted in God,
allowing myself to come up with my own little 'backup plan'
but it never works does it.
It sometimes really deludes me how I must be so stong in my faith,
when in reality I feel like I am just a stagnant pool of water,
not going any where.
Its not a nice feeling.
Getting over my thoughts and feelings
and learning how to trust God is proving not be be as simple as it seems.
Saturday, July 29, 2006
so I blog.
I still have my geog, ss, english essays to complete, but am in no mood to do so.
Today I woke up really late, rushed for lunch at TCC.
Got to eat a birthday cake and witness a very hilarious scene:
of Daniel smashing the cake right smack into Damien's face,
which was highly amusing.
BibleQuiz was interesting
our group was called yughi-oh
I so did not choose the name.
Anyway I dont think we did as badly as the previous years (:
SuFen and Bernice get really high and its scary,
their du-du's get quite urhm freaky.
Anyway, the ACSi sec3 group won,
so we get to share the prize!
Hannah is treating us to macs breakfast tomorrow
IanYan was like " We try so hard for 3 years to get first, they dont study and this is their first time, yet they still get first. injustice."
Anyway it is really not fair, I was taller than all of the guys for a good 10 years,
suddenly when they hit puberty they all shoot up like shitake mushrooms.
Now they are all taller than me, it feels sad everytime we play captains ball the girls get trashed.
Still its cool knowing people like Faith, for so mega long years.
Friday, July 28, 2006
You go so fast that you problems and worries can not seem to catch up.
They are just left behind, in the dust along with the rest of the world.
Running to a place, where there is solitude and peace.
Sitting atop God's most magnificent creatures, it feels like you can almost touch the heavens.
Thank you God for making Horses.
Anyway my breeches has suddenly sprouted numerous holes,
I think it might have been there for awhile but i just did not notice.
As a result I have really bad abrasions at the back of my knees.
So my mother seeing my plight agreed to get me new ones :D
I have to go all the way down to Tagore,
so I would be late for Biblequiz.
Oh well, not like I am looking forward to it.
Thursday, July 27, 2006
AhTing if you see this shirt at FunkyB tell me so I can go buy it,
in fact anyone who sees it.
Hoohumm
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
I get distracted and make a new layout for myself
Three cheers for Becky who sucessfully wasted one whole day of E-learning :x
The past few days have been highly eventful, so there is things to blog about.
Heritage tour was utterly boring, our tour guide, Micheal, was seriously short.
Half of the time I could not see him.
Anyway we never did listen to him, we stayed at the back doing our own little things, Cam whoring.
The photos we took were just, Idiotic.
I am waiting for Raina to upload them and send them over.
When it was break time, I finally got to eat my prata.
Duty ended so late yesterday that I could not eat prata.
We finally went on the silly boat ride.
The 12 of us managed to fit nicely onto the sampan thingy.
Once on the sampan, we all had newfound energy,
causing all of us to go high.
Jo at every single bridge without fail will exclaim: "ohmigwash the __(add in name)___ bridge! WOAH!"
All of us screaming and waving at random tourist walking by the Singapore river, probably causing them to conclude that all Singaporean youths are highly disturbed attention seekers.
Majority of us squeezing onto the front of the boat which did not have any seats,
taking pictures of us and scenery and everything that we laid eyes on,
trying very hard not to fall of
& not paying any attention at all to the running tape comentry that was totally boring.
Feeling all high and happy to be on the boat together doing absolutely retarded things,
we could not bear to part with our beloved boat.
So at the end of the boat ride, we started singing really bad renditions of "Yue Liang Dai Biao Wo De Xin"
complete with harmonising(?) at the top of our lungs,
shocking the tourist that were waiting at the jetty waiting for their turn to sit on the boat.
Who looked positively apprehensive about going on to the boat due to our uhm strangeness.
The boat ride was really tiring, no idea why.
Must be all the taking of pictures, non-stop laughing and weirdness.
The boat ride was really fun.
Went 'shopping' with Izzy and Chloe,
which ended up just walking around aimlessly.
Who knew the finacial district was so dead
Anyway we went to Suntec, Raffles Link and Marina Square, finding absolutely nothing to do.
However we did managed to amsues ourselves at Toys'R'Us for a while.
I bought a book called 'Hope Rising',
its about the 2 things I love the most:
1. God
2. Horses
I shall be happy reading it :D
Chloe tried to give my wardrobe a revamp, by getting me to buy some skirts.
She FAILED HAH!
All I got was some retro white hairband,
which I will have to wear to FOP with Tumblelina.
I cannot wait for FOP, get to eat at Vienna and get into a buffet mess once again
When I came home I was flatout tired, with my legs almost dropping off
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
My feet are aching thanks to them.
Founders' day was mundane,
we did not even get to eat leftovers after all our hardwork ):
Oh well, finished so late that everyone left already.
So I rushed down to meet them for chicken rice, I tried to climb over the fence but since my skirt did not have a slit,
I failed. it was still highly amusing because BO superstar's face was classic.
Went to Jo's house with Izzy, Celine and Nana.
Her house is like woooaahhh.
Me, izzy and Celine went swimming in her pool, which was glorious in the nice warm afternoon sun.
Went tanning on this random platform for awhile.
Izzy is the most hilarious woman on this Earth,
she floats like a drowning mosquito,
gets out of the pool like a killer whale.
She made us play Mr. Shark with her.
Highly retarded.
I felt really tired because izzy kept trying to drown me.
Anyway we took this really retarded video of us doing stupid crap.
I look like i am dying and
Izzy laughs like a hysterical woman.
Nana, was totally lost for words.
Jo's house had alot of food, which is super cool.
Hoho fun day, but i just realised how much homework i have.
Monday, July 24, 2006
Today was the most pointless, useless day of school that ever exsisted.
All I did was stare at some very scary primary girls doing the Fruit Partae,
give out fake fish tank gems to primary school girls who were actually bothered to answer Chloe's random questions.
Played touch typing which was highly amusing for a while
before we went back to class to sleep.
On the floor, on our lab coats, with God knows what sort of bugs and gross shiz.
This is a pointless post to go with a pointless day, because i needed something to go with the comic strip
which I found to be hilarious.
Sunday, July 23, 2006
Whenever the rush recedes
My reality melts away
Turning on the TV screen
It appears were all ok
I always wonder what it would be like if I was born somewhere else, into a different place.
I have to spend another dreaded day at the MGS ROCs exhibit, dying from dehydration.
The primary school hall is impossibly stuffy
However I am currently void of feeling.
Friday, July 21, 2006
Event after event,
but I am grateful.
New opportunities, I suppose it is whether you are willing to embrace it and do with everything with a smile,
because there is nothing like the joy of the Lord.
I cannot wait for this whole week to be over & everything will be back to normal.
Everyday it amazes me how our class is able to come up with something stupid and retarded to do.
It makes everything sort of bareable with all the crap that goes on.
Its like I am flactulating from happy to emo.
Izzy came over after school today, she raided all my food.
It was highly scary.
Izzy did something really naughty too
Horrible woman and at one point of time we were fighting for the keyboard and i have no idea what happened to my computer.
She is such a BUN
Beu is the PAU
Chloe is the BO superstar
Seriously strange people
Anyway riding was a nightmare.
I had to swtich with this girl to get on magic
He is a massive 17.5hh (?) gelding, taller than me
I nearly DIED. He is so bouncy so i was flopping around the saddle
My legs totally lost all its muscles from not riding for so long
I wished i rode sunshine ):
Oh well, it made me realise I need to WORKOUT.
Towards the end, the horses spooked.
Something happened and my back got hurt, I think it got twisted
but everything was just scary.
After dismounting I collapsed because I did not realise the floor was so far away.
Oh well.
Rushed all the way for cell, only Debbie, Cheryl and Weilin came
It was really a dejavu, when our cell was really tiny and we could fit into one table.
Nice and cosy, but its cool that our cell is growing.
Cell always gives alot of food for thought, especially since we are doing the end times.
Learned so many cool things,
like the word 'rapture' never ever appeared in the Bible it just means 'to be stolen' in Greek.
So there is no such thing as rapture.
Tomorrow Opening thing and tuition at 10am
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
The truth is you just make everything worse.
What have you even done to try and cheer me up.
Maybe you have in the past,
bu now all you do is tell me what is right.
Things are not as simple as black and white.
Dont worry a about my joy,
i have found it.
His name is Jesus.
Stop asking me to trust people,
because trust is earned.
Not summoned like a magic trick.
This trust is lost
Its like asking me to trust a total stranger.
On a lighter note,
we did not have any lessons today :D
with all the rehearsals and technical briefings.
There was only 4 people left in the class,
so went slightly high with Raina and Adele.
Laughing at the most stupid things like
muffins.
When the xiao didi came back, we started bullying her.
Which was highly entertaining.
Finally when the rest came back,
it was a madhouse.
The whole bunch of them trying to learn the hiphop,
which equates to free comedy.
They are seriously the most hilarious people in my life.
Starting to think 3s is one of the really good things that happened to me
I have to wear a blazer throughout the whole of founders' day ):
Take my heart & make me new, Lord
I am ready for you to come and fill my soul
Monday, July 17, 2006
A MINI TORRES!!!
He is going to grow up and become a a soccer star who looks like Torres (:
He appeared in my front garden since his maid knows his maid.
He started kicking his little pink football around
& HE LOOKED SO CUTE!
Me, being the pheadophile I am tried very desperately to get a nice front picture of him
However failed miserably.
I almost went to take a picture of him but I currently have the inability to walk.
My gosh I am so strange.
Thank you Izzy for listening to all my crappy ranting and cheering me up
Felt alot better after that :D
You're cool
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Everytime someone asks 'how are you'
because one word is easier than many others.
You are right,
I don't have any friends.
Because I am just an insignificant pawn
always conveniently there
Maybe after a laugh or two
the old me would come back.
The one that was never supposed to be sad.
Because Becky is not supposed to be a emo kid.
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Went to Seoul Garden to eat.
Now I feel bloated, fat and bored.
Basically, all 10 us of demure girls turned into babarians upon reaching the buffet table.
We had piles of meat the size of mountains and plates of yong tau fu stuff.
Cooking was eventful with Izzy, Chloe and Beulah around.
The conversation around the dinner table was mostly:
"THE BEEF IS BURNING"
"ADD MORE SOUP"
"OMG EEWWWW"
"I AM GOING TO DIE FROM CANCER!"
"OW IT HURTS"
Yes but it was fun to laugh at random things that did not make much sense.
Like Izzy's 3 stomachs
I really have not had so much beef and chicken in my life.
When I came home i think i pee-ed a gallon of pee.
Must be the many cups of sprite.
Oh well.
When the cake came out, it was uh eventful.
Beu was the sacrificial cow.
We caked her and iced her.
She hates me now, but whats new?
Got Raina, but she got me back.
My hair is not even close to being dry ):
I am bored.
Friday, July 14, 2006
Today I feel tired, happy & delighted beyond words
Finally after 3 months which felt like a gazillion years,
I finally got back onto a horse.
Which felt like heaven, I really have not felt so happy in a LONG time.
I missed the feeling of being able to just connect with your horse.
To ride and not care about a thing. Just concentrating on the little things in life that really matter.
Horses are so simple, so trustworthy.
It is these little small things they do that make all these complicated human feelings look stupid.
its because they love without condition. or maybe for a carrot or two.
How i miss all the horses' goofiness and silly anthics.
I feel like i am floating on cloudnine now.
When you go into canter the smooth flow of the gait
For that moment you feel like you are insync with the whole world, everything flashes by.
and it does not matter.
Maybe its the feeling of running away that I like, not being accountable for anything.
Thats unfortunately not life for me.
I FEEL SO HAPPY AND HIGH AND HAPPY!
When I was not riding it was like a part of me was just missing leaving some empty void
Now my pretty horses are back.
God is really so cool to make such cool things like horses.
The club had hot water, I was practically rejoicing in the shower just because they had hot water.
A club whose water supply was cut off for 2 weeks had HOT WATER.
Horse-riding is the ultimate. seriously
Thursday, July 13, 2006
I sound so very emo.
Hello everyone,
Becky is totally fine and not suicidal.
She justs needs a timeout
Thank you very much.
Yet find comfort in numbers where we fit in
It is really amazing how someone can feel so lonely in a crowd,
because everyone just whizzes not taking the time to see who you are.
Maybe one day you would join the crowd, so much so
that when your old self walks by you dont even take a second glance.
Because it is always nice to know that you belong somewhere.
Is it really worth it?
What if I am not what i was supposed to be and I just left my real self somewhere.
I do not even know why i am talking about this.
Highly random.
I have a sudden thing for latin.
Devia
One day I will learn latin and no one will understand me.
So i can talk to myself and noone will know what I am thinking.
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
It reminds me of the volcanic islands of hawaii and iceland.
When tetonic plates slide over specific hotspots (an area which magma rises to the Earth's surface as there is a weak area on the Earth's crust),
the lave melts the rocks on the sea bed to create an opening resulting in underground volcanos.
Over time igneious rock accumulates around the opening, forming landforms.
If the landform gets too large it sticks out of the water!
Just like my cool cut.
Aint my geog just fantabulous.
Comrade decided to sit next to me during tuition.
Which was highly disturbing.
One day i shall be influenced by his communist ways.
This week he took out a pocket watch, next week he might take out the little red book of mao.
How funky.
My life is random filled with funny random people.
Did I mention that I have really strange friends?
Today i got 6 GIGANTIC lightsticks that have a strong resemblence to lightsabers
The yellow one was already broken and now it is not glowing no more ):
I gave Adele the cool Pink one which she broke, somehow.
I wanted to save the other four, but at tuition the green one broke ):
& it was my favourite colour.
So I just gave it to Damien since i did not want to look so retarded carrying around 2 broken lightsticks in broad daylight since it sticks right of my bag.
Now I only have 3 left ):
I sound so deprived getting sad over silly lightsticks.
Lightsticks are COOL. They GLOW.
Sunday, July 09, 2006
However, spending a morning with them was seriously fun.
First I got to bully Beulah.
Izzy's church is definately something different and i was NOT pissed off nor bored.
It was seriously ok.
Went to Crystal Jade Xiao Long Bao place.
It was really good and all of Izzy's demurness totally left.
After that she sprayed water out of her mouth like a water jet twice.
Food was goood.
Went to NYDC to eat desserts.
I decided to indulge in myself :D
Anyway all of us started to feel sad and angsty.
Hating life and school.
Izzy and I managed to cheer ourselves up by bullying Beu
& trying saying who we would go for in our class if we were a guy.
Which was a totally wrong topic.
OSIM- Oh Shit Its Monday.
Basically: Hello, SPA o levels.
Saturday, July 08, 2006
There is absolutely nothing you can do about it
SMP IS DRIVING ME UP THE WALL
Ever day i have to hide my face when i see Mrs Lam along the corridor to avoid:
"WEEEBECKAAAHHHH!!! WHERE IS YOUR WEEPORTTT!!! WAIT ARH THE SMP PEOPLE DONT LET US PARTICIPATE NEXT YEAR TSK TSK TSK"
it is not exactly very pleasant. Furthermore our report is so __________
It is so very shallow and with no substance.
The person helping us with our experiment gave us insufficient information, I am not able to conclude ANYTHING with the random bunch of numbers that she just sent to us.
I FEEL LIKE STRANGLING SOMETHING.
Furthermore, Mrs Choo left school before I could go collect the jackets from her.
Aunty Vicky wants them back by TOMORROW.
TELL ME HOW?!
She has not even given me her imput on wha she wants and all that.
Seriously, if it does not turn out nice.
The whole Sec3 level will be after ME.
You know what, I give up.
I really do.
It is not worth it. I shall sleep and tomorrow all these things will magically dissapear.
Today was supposed to be a GOOD day ):
The only plus points was that school ended at noon,
went out with the Ame, Stacey, Jia, Jia, Marissa.
It was nice hanging out with them and seeing how each of us have grown since our sec1 days.
Trying to imagine what it would be like 10 years down the road.
Watched Superman Returns, nothing that fantastic about it.
Cell was at Hannah's just remembered feeling really sleepy thats all.
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Except during tuition.
There was this new cheena dude that appeared.
He stood at the door for like 5 mins while Ms Long was explaining something to me.
Since I sit rather near the door i was in full view of him.
So when Ms Long finally saw him, he KNOCKED the open door.
Now the whole room was looking at him.
Cheena dude: Harlloo, I'm the new comrade.
Me: HAHAHAHAHA (nearly falling off my chair)
Ms Long: Are you from china?
By this time i was trying VERY hard not to laugh,
anyway when Damien left he said Bye Comrade & I started laughing once again.
COMRADE. Is such a cool new word, seriously.
It shall be my cool new word.
HELLO FELLOW COMRADES!
Monday, July 03, 2006
Me and Syl went to Chloe's place to design the sabbaticals jacket,
which should turn out nice.
However, Syl&Chloe decided to steal my phone and read all my stuff
I, objected strongly. So Chloe tried to rape me.
Naturally it did not work.
Anyway they decided to put nail polish on me WITH FAILED.
Next they tried to put LIPSTICK on me.
Which also failed.
In the end they started drawing on me
The outcome:
my legs look super queer, oh well.
The taxi driver looked at me like I was nuts.
I could NOT take the bus with my legs looking so weird.
it had so many WEIRD things written on it,
I want to invent invisible pads
Route 69: Closed for the day. Only open at night.
THEY ARE SO SCREWED IF IT CANNOT BE WASHED OFF.
There is some very idiotic things written on my legs about 2482698 which CANNOT be said, lest i want to get whacked up.
They are totally not true, just because they read through my phone >(
Stupid morons.
RAWR.
Somethings are not worth going through
Everything might be all swell on the outside.
You have changed, its like you do not exsist anymore.
Its ok I am fine,
if you want to believe that.